Poetry: From My Letter Series

A Letter to T.S. in Spring

My Beloved —

As I walk, a warm wind blows and rain hits my face
Flowers are blooming, but i pay no heed
Memories are flooding my mind
About the day everything went horribly wrong
If only I hadn’t screamed —
we would still be celebrating a life together

Instead of seeking a new job
Depression consumed me; I was deflated
I’d never been fired before —
How could I make you understand?
I nearly died that day —
I just couldn’t find a knife dull enough

The pain! The incredible pain
The humiliation, served cold
Heads hung low, so low, we went back to him
If only —
These regrets have haunted me for three years
O how I failed you! I tore us all apart

© 2013 Lori Carlson

2 thoughts on “Poetry: From My Letter Series

  1. Frances D says:

    Major flashback. Had a friend in depression for 2 years over loss of a job. They finally had to come up with a business of their own – no one would hire them. Their mood was so foul for those 2 years – the bitterness. When I read your lines I could feel and see pain. Well-done.

    • Iona Nerissa says:

      Thank you, Frances… it has been 3 yrs for me and I still do not have the courage to work in the public again. Mine has a lot to do with being bipolar with anxiety disorder. It’s really sad when life throws wrenches at you and you cannot recover. I appreciate your words, thank you.

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