small stones – May 17, 2016


art credit: Moonlight Fantasy by Mary Espen

why do I dwell here
in such darkness
so removed from the light?
surely my soul would thrive
if sunshine filled me —
but isn’t there muted light
from the moon as well?
And I need the dark to see it–
this duality confuses me
I question my very existence–
Is it time to let go
of the questions
and merely do the work?

10 thoughts on “small stones – May 17, 2016

  1. calensariel says:

    Geez, Lori… You just told my life story…

    • Lori Carlson says:

      That’s scary, Calen… no one should live that story

      • calensariel says:

        You’re right, but it was all kept hidden safely in my head.I never let anyone see anything.

      • Lori Carlson says:

        I tend to do that as well.. I think we just need to let it all out, regardless of the consequences sometimes.

      • calensariel says:

        You know, I remember when Bran was four and I was just spaced out on the bed, so weary and lethargic. He crawled up beside me and asked me if I was going to die. That’s what snapped me out of it…

      • Lori Carlson says:

        Oh wow… what a powerful life-changing moment! Have you written about this? If not, you should!

      • calensariel says:

        No, I haven’t written about it except maybe in my journal. My sister knows. I always kept my assortment of masks in a jar beside the door (as the Beatles would say). You know, when you come across as so self-sufficient no one ever asks how you are. I learned that a long time ago. My counselor told me to stop being a “pull yourself up by your own bootstraps” person and I don’t know how to do that. 😦

      • Lori Carlson says:

        I can so relate to this, Calen… I’ve had to learn to be vulnerable, something so foreign to me since I’ve been guarded since childhood. I think you need to write about this and explore it more. It may open up avenues you’ve never dreamed possible and help someone else in the process.

      • calensariel says:

        If the right time ever presets itself I will. Who knows. Maybe one of these prompts will be that time. 🙂

      • Lori Carlson says:

        Yes, when the moment presents itself 🙂

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